Triumph & Symphony (2011)


Written & Produced by Anna Madorsky, ASCAP c. 2011
Mixed by Andrew De Lucia
 
(phase 1) Engineered by Sejo Navajo at 4th Street Recordings, assisted by Alejandro Esperanza in Santa Monica, CA
(phase 2 & 3) Engineered by Andrew De Lucia at Blue Rhode Studios in Los Angeles, CA
Mastered by Paul Logus
Additional engineering by Anna at home in Los Angeles
 
Strings and horns written & arranged by Anna
performed by:
Danny T. Levin: alto horn, trumpet, trombone, euphonium, flugelhorn, & cornet on 3, 7, 14, 15
Robert Schumitzky: violin on 3, 7, 9
Erin Breene: cello on 3, 7, 9, intro on 1

Civil War II Written by Anna Madorsky, Produced by Andrew De Lucia & Anna Madorsky. ASCAP 2012
 
Album artwork by Alana Lindner
Photography by Daryl Henderson


When Rome Falls

You haven’t any clue of how to get near me
You treat people like a petting zoo while boasting your army
All the animals that have been caught in the net of your damage
Are not the frightened lambs you think, they’re strong enough to manage

And leave the king to hold court for a kingdom of one
When Rome falls. Will be done.

We ask for an even playing field, you run like a hamster
To exercise the futility that you could be kinder
The redshirt blood brigade you use to gain an advantage
While someone always has to suffer for you, more wounds to bandage

And leave the king to hold court for a kingdom of one
A small token of the thunder begun
When rome falls, we'll be done.
Grown men cried
dared and tried
the battlefield was lit up with the sun
the gold of it shone upon none.

The dark horse stabled up inside needs all our attention
You’ve shamed it into feeling things too cruel to mention
We hid ourselves away but found no safety in numbers
The ancient seas are littered with the hours of our slumbers

As we leave the king to hold court for a kingdom of one
A small token of the thunder begun
A new winter is as handsomely won
When rome falls, we'll be done.

(the sun and the moon will give illumination to
The weakening signal that he’s trying to transmit to you
He’ll walk in every corner pacing everywhere that we’ve been
The distance is a bridge that we cannot surrender)


If we leave he cannot fight us
The king could never buy us
The winter is behind us
And we will leave him.
When Rome falls, we'll be done.

Anna: vocals, piano, rhodes, keyboards, B3 organ
Axel Steuerwald: guitars
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Civil War

A civil war is burning the ocean
Between our shores while we’re circling the notion
The greater good is so hard and confusing
But the golden rule we’re hardly using

I don’t know what we’re headed for
Through a canopy of night
I’ve still got my nerve to carry me
If you still keep the fire bright

So where’s the use in all our clever inventions
if goodwill sits on the edge of extinction
The captain speaks, says they’ll shoot the deserters
But if the vessel sinks, they wouldn’t have heard us

I don’t know what we’re headed for
Through a canopy of night
I’ve still got my nerve to carry me
If you still keep the fire bright


Turning it over and over again
Talking it over and over again

I don’t know what we’re headed for
Through a canopy of night
I’ve still got my nerve to carry me
If you still keep the fire bright

I think that you are some kind of genius
To talk me through the ocean between us

Anna: vocals, piano, keyboards
Charlie Dresser: drums, percussion
Sean Barrett: bass


Out of the Hornet’s Nest

A windfall in record drought
The rain of good fortune to topple the doubt
Turn off the engine, get to my feet
Lifting my arms as it pours on me

Out of the hornet’s nest, into the lion’s den
Out of the den of thieves, into the desert sand
And I made it alive, I’m alive, I’m alive
I feel it now

A deep well no limits known
The flood of abundance and each finds their own
Watch it spill open, street wet with cheer
The Triumph and Symphony fill the air

Rain begins like a natural law
Coming out as another reign falls
Throw your arms down
Throw my arms up
And I feel it now.

Out of the hornet’s nest, into the lion’s den
Out of the den of thieves, into the desert sand

Children are running by
Stacks of provisions arch to the sky
Words of encouragement spread all around
An army of goodness fuels the sound
And I hear it now

Anna: vocals, piano, keyboards, "orchestra" outro
Charlie Dresser: drums, percussion
Sean Barrett: bass


Effortless

Let it go, my paper bird is flying
Say the words I love you without trying
I'm a cloud, the air's enough to hold me
I defy what they have ever told me
Effortless soaring, with wings not coming down
I'm a nest outside of my own boundaries
I resist the limits they put on me
Space and time are just a point of reference
Push me round, it won't make any difference
Effortless soaring, with wings not coming down

Anna: vocals, keyboards, piano
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Crown

Toiling. I was toiling through
Through my handiwork of torture
Push my boulder up a hill then start all over
How did I ever get here?
My debilitating nightmare
Oh and the madness never ends
But, but then
You dragged me through my abandoned castles
Gave me my crown
I crawled out from inside my two dimensions
Taking my joy back
Instinct, caution, wondering which of these I ought to
Follow, don’t go, walking through my brain on tiptoe
Oh, I step on the pedal, oh, I pull back the reins
I’m crushed in the middle again
But then
You dragged me through my abandoned castles
Gave me my crown
I crawled out from inside my two dimensions
Taking my joy back
All the wrong ways, I learned it from all the wrong teachers
All the wrong things given to all the wrong people
Oh not to be affected
Hide not to be rejected again.
But, but then
You dragged me through my abandoned castles
Gave me my crown
I crawled out from inside my two dimensions
Taking my joy back

Anna: vocals, guitars, keyboards
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass

Don’t You Want to Marry Me?

Don’t you want to marry me?
I’m marshmallow love
In the middle I’m soft and sweet
Isn’t that enough?

If you care anything for me
And I’m just scared I’ll get burned
There’s still a problem with my radar
which means I’ve plenty to learn.

Don’t you want to marry me?
I’m marshmallow love
In the middle I’m soft and sweet
Isn’t that enough?

I’m endless tracking the midnight sky
I’m deep in the dark of the pockets of night
I retreated from a pack of wild wolves
Then wore my own silver coat
I knew then I was alone.

Don’t you want to marry me?
I’m marshmallow love
In the middle I’m soft and sweet
Isn’t that enough?

If you care not a thing for me
If you can sit while I squirm
There’s still a problem with my radar
Which means there’s plenty to learn.

The wounds surrender the venom
and lay down before every cell
And finally I think I've forgiven myself
For letting him not love me well
So finally I think I've forgiven myself
So if you love me, love me well.

Don’t you want to marry me?
I’m marshmallow love
In the middle I’m soft and sweet
Isn’t that enough?

Anna: vocals, piano, rhodes
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


See Yourself

He’s gotten his shot at telling you the facts
It’s nothing you haven’t thought a thousand times worse than that
You’ve been impossibly sad, a head full of razors
Now is it possible that we can try to change this?

If for a few brief moments you could see yourself
Without using the eyes of somebody else
It’s a victimless crime without consequence
If you never would come to your own defense.

 We left after dark, you gave me the keys
you cried you feel like a fiction, a fraud, that you needed more self-esteem
You put your cheek on the glass and look out the window
I said the most wonderful people I know rarely think so.

If for a few brief moments you could see yourself
Without using the eyes of somebody else
It’s a victimless crime without consequence
If you never would come to your own defense.
For a few brief moments could you see yourself
without using the eyes of everyone else
It’s a victimless crime without consequence
If you never would come to your own defense.

Isn’t it time that we change this?

Anna: vocals, piano, rhodes, keyboards
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Love in Spades

They warned against me, said I was a wild card
But if I’m a joker, then I’m also the knave of hearts
Deal out the deck and we can sort this out face to face
Beneath my armor, I could offer you love in spades

The devil is paper thin
And I’m still out gambling
I place my bets again

The others didn’t stick around or follow through
I resist temptation and put a fence between me and you
It is my dungeon, I’m underground with the only key
but now I’m worried I’m buried in far too deep

The devil is paper thin
And I’m still out gambling
I place my bets, I roll love

The daylight pours through my hard diamond skin
Designed to not let more suffering in
But now I want a whole world I’m without
So take my hand and pull me out

The devil is paper thin
And I’m still out gambling
I place my bets, with no regrets, again.

Anna: vocals, piano, keyboards
Axel Steuerwald: guitars
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


My Lonely Parachute

Oh I still think of you
I offered you my only parachute
We were falling like an avalanche
Together was never oh
I make decisions that I shouldn’t regret
While daydreaming about the opposite
Unsettling some of my memories
Forever is never oh

Rise and fall again in the river as the wind blows through
Holding on, I would forever, but then it cuts me loose
Wading out into the water, my lonely parachute

I remember you the astronaut
Around the planet I never caught up
I never understood our circumstance was
Wherever, however wrong

Rise and fall again in the river as the wind blows through
Holding on, I would forever, but then he cuts me loose
Wading out into the water, My lonely parachute

Would I hold on like this forever with a parachute?
I rose and fell into the river, but now the wind blows through

Tell me all about the plans that you’ve kept
I want to hear about the people you’ve met
All my moonboots are two sizes too small,
so let’s take them and burn them all
I’m tired of wrestling with poetry
Help me out because I need to believe
that it is possible that I’d get my wish
that I’ll ever get better at this.

Rise and fall again in the river as the wind blows through
Holding on, I would forever, but then it cuts me loose
Wading out into the water, My lonely parachute
Would I fall again? Would I fall?

Anna: vocals, piano, guitar, keyboards
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Red Summer Berries

Red summer berries
Jump from the highest swing
I must be dreaming
all of these intimate things
Is this how love begins?
And all the while I am thinking
all of my troubled thoughts
Sit down beside me
And give me the love you brought
Out of darkness I swim into the stars

Now that you know this
You’re behind the fortress gate
The dress is a bold one
the knees underneath it shake
What will you do with me and these intimate things?
What will you do with me when I jump from that swing?

Anna: piano and vocals


Animal

I’m an animal
Call me an animal

I’m 60 seconds from landing
in the space where we intersect
I’m moving in ever closer
Leaving marks so you’ll never forget

That I’m an animal
Call me an animal
I’m an animal
Call me an animal

Climb into the ocean
Take hold till you let it all go
From each cup you are drinking
In this hunger I won’t leave you alone

Cause I’m an animal
Call me an animal 

Set fire to the naked moon
No chance that I want to be rescued
Come to just to lose it again
Give you everything and I am not sorry yet.

Anna: vocals, guitars, keyboards, rhodes, drum programming
Sejo Navajo: additional & noise guitar
Andrew De Lucia: drum programming
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Both Feet In

Both feet in
One then the other
Home was left
with my unread letters
A million miles away now 
It’s outer space I can see the skies from
Sapphire blue nearing the horizon
All my voices turn quiet as I walk to climb in

Both feet in
One then the other.
A million miles away now
I’m in a place where nothing turns out right
And all the air is taken when I try
And where is that? The evening sun sets faster
Take me in, I’d give anything to crash there

It’s outer space I can see the skies from
Sapphire blue nearing the horizon
All my voices turn quiet as I walk to climb in

Both feet in
One then the other
I have left
Here I am no one’s treasure
A million why’s I’ve weighed out
A million lies I’ve made out
A million miles away now.

Anna: piano and vocals, guitars


Oh My Friend

Oh my friend I've been defeated
All my hopes have been crushed
I unbottled and shined up my dreams
But they crumbled and turned to dust 
Oh but then you remind they're lying
When they say I won't survive cause I'm fighting
I want to take your advice, I'm trying, oh my friend.

Taking cues I'm not understanding
underwater and blind
And all my fears they keep me returning 
to the scene of the crime
Oh but then you remind they're lying
When they say I won't survive cause I'm fighting
I want to take your advice, well I'm trying, oh my friend.

I feel like I'm going mad
Right now it's all I have
Holding your words
All that I'm worth

I'm almost through this dark desert island
You kept my hopes and my wish
And if you ever need someone to lean on
I can offer you this
Oh, I will remind that they're lying
when they say you won't survive cause you're fighting 
You wanna take my advice, well keep trying, oh my friend.
You will survive this.

Anna: vocals, acoustic and electric guitars, piano, keyboards
Axel Steuerwald: electric guitar, ebow
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Submarine

Pings from a submarine
Break this underwater scene
A code I could never crack
Anyways, I’m coming back

Breaking in, I’m on the heels of all unchartered missions
Gumshoe, kick myself for all my insecure revisions
The fates have all been sacked, there is no turning back

Clowns everywhere I look
As if scripted from a horror book
My, my you’re a piece of work
Lording over me like some kind of jerk

Breaking in, I’m on the heels of all unchartered missions
Gumshoe, kick myself for all my insecure revisions
The fates have all been sacked, there is no turning back

There is no going back, there is no turning back

One, two, I walk into this room from underwater
I am no longer just a her, or someone’s daughter
In time it takes to blink I’m through again, again

Tossed in penny after penny
But you still throw your weight around
I bought a bottle with a genie
Better still I buckle down.

Anna: vocals, piano, keyboards, handclaps
Charlie Dresser: drums, percussion
Sean Barrett: bass


The Infinite Call

On the edge of a knife we climb our way up towards the sun
And we speculate on the nature of science and god
To the weight of all things
There's no prophet we need
Heed the infinite call
Between science and god
The curious drive to open our eyes to the one, the wonderment
All that we find and all that we hope to unearth, on earth
To the weight of all things
There's no prophet we need
Heed the infinite call
Between science and god
Each day begins we open ourselves to the light
The light or dark path that we take when separate love from hate
of ourselves, our cells, and the
To the weight of all things
There's no prophet we need
Heed the infinite call
Between science and god.

Anna: vocals, organ, piano, guitar, keyboards
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass


Sing You Lullabies

The city lies in ruins
And over ground it, the ash is in fumes
And I knew they would burn the city we built
The tragedy would be if we stayed and walked in it still
A lifetime is less than you know
So I can’t let you stay here on silent patrol
I’ll take the wheel while you let it go
I’ll sing you lullabies
I’ll put out the fire on your skin
We have seen all the monsters
Aren’t we done with letting them in?
And I’ll have no last confession
and my love is a naked fact
they told me to leave you and your graveyard behind
But you know me better, I cannot leave it at that
Chorus
Aren't we done with letting them win?

It’s not right to pour out like honey
your shape is unraveling
over landscapes your heart is caught on

The last word has been spoken
And victory here is never certain
You punish yourself for losing what doesn’t endure
Come with me now I’ll show you the things that are truer
Chorus

Anna: vocals, piano, keyboards, guitars
Charlie Dresser: drums
Sean Barrett: bass

Overture

And I hear it now....

Anna: piano, vocals, "orchestra"